Who Made It Be That Way - Words and Music by Mary Ann Vorasky, copyright 2019.
lyrics
When I was a child
I was treated so bad
Ignored by my mom
And abused by my dad
I learned loving meant pain
And being alone
Calling somebody's name
Whose love never came home
Don't tell me I'm wrong:
I know what I've known,
I'm not the one
Who made it be that way
Well, a voice in my head says
It's always the same
But a voice in my heart says
Let go of the pain
Still, when I feel love
I clamp down really hard
'Cause I keep that bad dog
Tied up in the yard.
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Don't tell me I'm wrong
I'm not the one…
Who made it be that way?
I ran away to the church
A child alone
They didn’t want to know
What was going on
Got there in the dark
The door was locked
So I waited in the breezeway.
At sun up, a woman came
Looked at me sideways,
Didn’t ask my name and stated:
I’ll give you some toast,
You can sit and eat with us,
But don’t speak to Father
About why you came.
It was all I could do
To run away
And sit there in the dark so bold
But in the light of day
I was a good girl
I did what I was told
I did what I was told
I choked down that dry toast
As if it was the host
And waited for the priest
To ask me to speak
But he wouldn’t look up
Over his coffee cup
Just kept his nose stuck
In the newspaper
And the teacher calling
Yet again
School work is suffering
Is there something at home?
I ran away to the church
A child alone
They didn’t want to know
What was going on
I ran away to my friends
But they couldn’t help me.
I’ve been living in hell
‘cause I thought that I had to
Treat myself well—
I never learned how to.
If you come to my door
I’d really like to let you in
But how can I be sure
It won’t happen again?
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Don't tell me I'm wrong
I'm not the one
Who made it be that way.
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Don't tell me I'm wrong
I'm not the one
Who made it be that way.
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Don't tell me I'm wrong
I'm not the one—
Who made it be that way?
credits
from @MaryAnnVelocity,
track released October 18, 2019
Who Made It Be That Way - Acoustic Guitar: Mary Ann; MIDI guitar and drums: Mary Ann; Bass guitar: John Mason. Arranged and Produced by Mary Ann; Co-production by Sejo Navajas and Andreas Kvinge Sandnes.
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